We only find how fragile we really are inside, when we are encountered by the reality of our ability to see, how easily we can be broken.

We only find how fragile we really are inside, when we are encountered by the reality of our ability to see, how easily we can be broken.


I rarely ever open up to people, and when I do for some reason I spill my guts all over the floor. I make such a mess of myself that I dont even bother to clean it up and grovel and squirm in my own pool of thoughts, feelings, emotions and expectations.

Then again, when does one find someone who fits them so perfectly, that you would drop everything, drop everything and just run away with them. Where every embrace takes all the whirlwinds of your life, takes every longing, takes everything you wanted, and makes your world feel totally clear again.

Like sunshine peering through leaves after a storm and your walking head high again, BUT for some reason, I take that as a negative and a positive. I Long for those moments, but these are the moments that define how deep we fall for that someone, and how much deeper we fall when it is no longer there.

Though I have been hurt many times before. I never let that deflect me from allowing someone to enter again. Not when they are beautiful. The kind of beauty that makes you wonder where they have been your whole life, and when they openly admit the same tinkering in their minds, you just fly head over heels!

I guess this is my way of saying I have met someone that I know will never leave my mind, and possibly my heart (however cold and black it is lol)

I want them to know that no matter how far they may be from me, and how long it is from the last time we spoke, they will be remembered and missed entirely!

p.s. There will always be variables that will try to obstruct and prevent any and all possibilty for furtherting any kind of a friendship or relationship. Those are the times where you have to decide who is being most truthful, honest and caring of the person who most matters in your life, which is YOU!

TheDengerousDolls.com = A BIG NO NO!

Talk about Infuriating!

Yea, I only gave that website a spin to see what it was about, it seemed cool at first you know the same companies doing the same thing, naked ladies it was cool because all, well mostly all the models, I am friends with and communicate with often.

So I joined. Then I started learning about all the drama attached to the site and how the site was slowly turning into some hardcore porn thing, which I don't shy away from, but there always has to be some professionality in business.

Then came time to submit my first set(today) when THIS happend.

I communicated my issues with the site owner and BOOM!

(Just a little background once you read and learn. the individual masked as someoen named "Dragon" is the "Owner")

WOW I am more then appalled at how the OWNER of thsi damn site handled himself and his content driving staff!

SO judging by my brief and useless time as a staff photographer for this website I BEG OF YOU! DONT JOIN and DONT GET NAKED for $30!!! DONT sell yourself short in life for pathetic unethical people such as this!!

I am CarbonDecay and I approve of this mesage!

-CD
carbondecay.com


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Just thought id drop by to fill you in on some happenings this past season and some new updates!

Today my set wit Vyl8 went live!
http://www.zivity.com/models/Vyl8/photosets/13

This set will surely have you googling for the definition, so to make your life easier I did it for you!

Let Me Google That For You!
http://lmgtfy.com/?q=Define+Hokum

Lets hope we get the desired reaction from our audience, which is some feedback and a vote =)

What you missed by not visiting my profile! tsk tsk =)


"Minimalism" with Annika
http://www.zivity.com/models/RaggedyAnnika/photosets/6

"i heart cookies" with Genna Bee
http://www.zivity.com/models/GennaBee/photosets/5

"Pink Panther" with Jasmin
http://www.zivity.com/models/Jasmin/photosets/5

"FIne Tuning" with Yan Yee
http://www.zivity.com/models/YAN/photosets/1

"Rainbow Raver" with Genna Bee
http://www.zivity.com/models/GennaBee/photosets/6

"Moonlight Scintilla" with Samantha Erin
http://www.zivity.com/models/eatshitanddie/photosets/1

"Bennies Office" with Samantha Erin
http://www.zivity.com/models/eatshitanddie/photosets/2


Hope you have enjoyed viewing my sets as much as we have creating them for you!

We thank you for your continued interst and support!

Coming Soon "Pooling Around with Bitesize Lauren, heres a sneak peek!
http://www.carbondecay.com/site/portfolio/displayimage.php?album=2&pos=2

-CD
CarbonDecay.com
718.673.1224




www.carbondecay.com

Pink is the NEW Black!

What else can i say, Pink is the NEW Black!



Come check out this fun and sexy new set with Jasmin. This hot set has NOT been thru all them heavy processing jobs, you usually see, this is as Natural as your going to get, this lady will have you begging for more!

Just remember, you need both hands to operate viewing this whole set, one to click; the other to vote! =)

http://www.zivity.com/models/Jasmin/photosets/5

Thanks for viewing!

-CarbonDecay.com










www.carbondecay.com

Back To Back Genna Bee!

Genna Bee in "Raver Girl"


Saturday, October 31st, 2009



We've got Back To Back Genna Bee, and i dont think we can get enough of this fun girl! Come check out the set "Raver Girl" and get your Rave on!

New Set!! Genna bee in I Heart Cookies

Trish Von Dish / The Smierc in Maxim Decay


Sunday, October 25th, 2009



I dont think anyone else has been capable of traumatizing the masses with a new way of eating their favorite cookie! Come watch Genna Bee get really into finding a new way to twist your sweet tooth! Its better when its messy!

Arrested for taking photographs of a car accident?

I was taking photos of a motorcycle car crash. the police officer told me to stop i still....



I was taking photos of a motorcycle car crash. the police officer told me to stop i still shot disregarding him.

he then threatened to arrest me, i said i would love to see him try, knowing my "rights" to photograph stuff outdoors.

then i was later confronted menacingly by two i think captains, or crime scene investigators, and i was on the phone with a friend discussing the issue similar to the even depicted here, they then figured they would barricade me INTo the crime scene by adding caution tape around the area i was in, IN FRONT OF MY JOB and stated i couldnt stay there had to leave stop taking pictures or i woudl get arrested. i wanted to so bad to get arrested, but i felt it wasnt worth while. i snappe done last pic as i was walking away LOL

question CAn i post these pictures, and was I wrong for taking pics or was supported by any photograpehgr rights, because once i stated i had rights as a photographer there conduct quickyl changed from menacing to uneasy and started to barricade me. this was is east meadow NY

this just happened one hour ago.. so obviously they didnt arrest me, just made my life difficult HAHA

So where are our RIGHTS protected!

http://www.legalandrew.com/2007/10/11/photo-law-your-right-to-take-pictures-in-public/

http://www.legalandrew.com/2007/10/11/photo-law-your-right-to-take-pictures-in-public/

http://www.legalandrew.com/2007/10/11/photo-law-your-right-to-take-pictures-in-public/

http://www.legalandrew.com/2007/10/11/photo-law-your-right-to-take-pictures-in-public/

http://www.legalandrew.com/2007/10/11/photo-law-your-right-to-take-pictures-in-public/

First zivity set published

www.carbondecay.com

Hallowen Party Photography

Event Photography - $199.00

WEB Discount $50 OFF - NOW $149

       

Our Nightlife Event Photography Package is economically priced for any event coordinator looking to incorporate high quality photos of their party or event.


Nightlife Photography package Details:

• 2 Hours of continuous Photography


• 150+ Digital Photo Files on disk


• Basic Image Retouching (ex.Color Tones, Contrast, etc.)


• Business Card Handout to Party Attendants


• Business Logo Application to photos

Available Options:

• Additional Time ......................... $50/Hour

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Portrait Photography Specials

PORTRAIT SHOOT *SPECIAL*

Basic Non-commercial Release shoot: $99 (subject to availability)

• Non-commerical License


• Production of a professional photoshoot


• 1 look
  
  
• Includes up to 1 hour of editing/retouching/file preparation


• Client can choose from at least 10 of the top shots posted in a password protected area online


• Client gets 1 "best of shoot" selects, edited at 72dpi 900x600 pixel JPGs (like THIS)


• Client does not get a disc of images or option to review all images from the shoot.


• This rate does not include makeup and hair styling, these add-ons are recommended and available at additional cost.


• Prints are available at an additional cost.


• All files can be delivered electronically via FTP and email

Suicide Girls, Suicide Girls, Suicide Girls...

Ok. The controversy continues...


I remember about 8 years ago or so, i was a wee little man, and i stumbled on some HBO Specials. As part of these "SPECIALS" was a documentary and kind of a worldwide

marketing/promotional Video From Suicide Girls. Ever since seeing that Video, I FELL IN LOVE!! like hoenstly i even made a shirt that said I <3>

Right about the time i decided to start submitting sets, i noticed a whole barrage of FREE LITHIUM PICNIC posters and an entire website dedicated to the whole Philip Warner/Lithium Picnic & Apnea situation. As far as that goes i am very useless as any kind of source in regards to the exact situation, BUT i recently stumbled on a very good source(as far as the internets go) for clearing up some of the "DRAMA" attached to that.

I have to say i am quite appalled as to the type of ethics attached to a company like Suicide Girls. The more I delve into researching their company policies and strategies the more I want to puke!!!!!

this is one tidbit of information source i have found:

http://kovalproductions.wordpress.com/2008/01/26/what-i-learned-about-suicide-girls/

along with many other verbal and internet communications i have had with other photograpehrs and models, i am beginning to feel, that SG better get on the RIGHT track or they may be on their way down!

So all in all ( damn i feel like i am writing a damn school essay now) my feelings towards SG Suicide Girls is still neutral, BUT heres the caviat, I dont think that Sg / Suicide Girls will be reciving any of my Photo Shoot Sets anytime soon!

DragonSitting... My Nephew

Hey all, I am Dragonsitting for this week. Joey needed someone to sit Fluffy ( the sexiest Bearded ever) and given that I LOVE Lizards especially any Dragon, and i have vast ezxpereince caring raising and breeding them, it was obvious who was the one to take charge of the (not so)little one =)






Day 1
Yes Iwas able to ft a 30gal L in my mustang, TOLD YA SO JOEY!
Took Fluffy about 3 -4 hours to finally adjus to his new surrounding, i tried mimmicking his tank setup best as possible from his home with his momma. Once i gave him a little cricket treat he warmed up to the idea and he was back on his perch =). Im going to Stop n Shop niw to buy the appropriate food selections for him as prescribed by his momma. Off to the Market now....

Day 2
Hes doing much better he started perching on his half log and enjoying some rays LOL
He is adjusting quite well, Sorry Joey he loves me more now HAHA he wasnt eating hsi salad so i had to point ihim in the rght direction again by feeding his favorite freeze drird cricket treat ( only 1 by his salad dish ). once by his dish he took notice of the nice salad i made for him =) he seems to know who i am because he isnt as jumpy whem im around but if anyone new is there he starts to get all fidgetty. I gave him his first bath, he seemed confused at first, but then i guess he realized i wasnt going to cook him. p.s. looked like he been holding that shit (literally) in for a while LOL

Day 3
Got up, poured some orange juice, and made some toast, tdiced up his salad and fed him a raspebrry. he seems to enjoy my salads very much =) Ill be going to get some nice silkworms for him on my way back home from work today.

Birthday Boy Birthday ME!

Well tomorrow smy birthday, August 17th, and I figured i would congratulate myself on my 25th birthday with soem gift to myself LOL

Well being that I am a geek, any kind of gear or electronics device will give me a woodie, i decided to buy some new photo gear!


Got me my first MANFROTTO Stand, and it was a necessary buy. A Boom / Hair Light Stand and a few extra goodies.

Using makeshift boom arms is dangerous to My models health and hysical well being, as Hell Kitten found out one day when it kinda bumoed her on the head on its way down. Its ok No Models were harmed during the process of any shoot hehe

well here are the new additions to my Gear/Studio Setup.



Manfrotta ™ Boom Stand with 160w/Sec Monolight Ready to photograph some pretty ladies!



Snapshot of some of my lighting


Manfrotta ™ Boom Stand Boom Assembly


Manfrotta ™ Boom Stand


Manfrotta ™ Background Kit!


Manfrotta ™ Boom Stand, Excalibure 1600 C 160w/sec monolight w/ 60 Degree Reflector with umbrella & Promaster Air Cushioned Stand + Manfrotto Background kit.


Manfrotta ™ Boom Stand

Stimulate Saturday August 22nd

I have a feeling i will be attending this event on the 22nd. id love to know who else is going!

Brought to you by Xris Smack

for more info click here

Orphan Movie Poster

Something about this Orphan Movie Poster really grabbed me. it seemed to really capture the character that little girl has set out to play. Its evil, as well as innocent and sort of arrogant and sneaky. It also is very symmetrical, maybe TOO symmetrical, so i felt i wanted to give myself a challenge, in recreating this poster. Its was more of a reverse engineering lighting test. I was very happy and pleasantly surprised with the results, given the fact i didn't have all the tools i thought i needed. here is the Final Product from the shoot with my really good friend and equally talented as she is Beautiful, Agnosia.





Here is the Run down on the lighting. I will post either a snapshot of the lighting setup or a 2d rendering of the lighting placement



Main/key light was my trusty Canon 580exii barebuld with paper as diffusion on boom arm directly above and a few degrees forward of Agnosia. 48 inch white reflector used for fill from below and equally distant from Agnosia and behind about 1.5 feet for edge lights were 2 160w/s monolights with 30" Umbrellas for nice soft spread but less harsh edge lighting.

thanks for reading and i hope this was helpful for some kind of insight on how i achieved my results!


-CD

http://www.carbondecay.com/

Approved Zivity Sets!

Hey guys. I am getting so anxious to see my sets get published. They are really awesome sets to and are scheduled to be up around September/October. Even though I am given these publish dates seem to be checking every day to see if they were published LOL I guess I needed a reason in life again =D

Well heres the run down of the sets you will be seeing on my Zivity Profile, Which can be viewed by clicking here http://www.zivity.com/users/carbondecay:

Annika - Minimalism

Genna Bee - Rainbow Raver & i heart cookies

Jasmin - Pink Panther

Yan Yee - Fine Tuning

I have been having a great time meeting so many beautiful and talented women, and being able to work with them in making some fun and great work for Zivity.com Sets, & has been such a pleasureable and rewarding experience!

Credits:

Genna Bee

Yan Yee

Jasmin

Annika

www.carbondecay.com